Loneliness

Nobody pay attention at me.
Days gone, people gone, friends gone, things gone, my feelings gone, my life gone.
Every Night I have to be strong and try not to cry. The feeling of loneliness always get inside me, and I get always alone.
I look like a happy person, but all this is a mask, which fall down when I start to write.
It's unpossible explain it, and it's so hard survive it all the days, and keep myself calm.
When I write, I take it away from me. All this pain, this happiness, all the feelings around me.

I'm growing up, but I still can't take care of myself, I can't live by myself, I need you with me.

Nowdays, I'm feeling like I were living without a propurse, without a wish, without the life.

God, please, help me. I want to get better, I need it. Yes, I could survive with it, but, please, take this loneliness away from me. God, bless me, I'm asking just it. Bless me, for I survive, for I get better, for I start to be happy again, to have real friends again, to love again.

Now, I'm feeling better. I sad, when I write, I get so much better, and if you see me outside, I'll be with a smile in my face. It will be not hard, 'cause, in spite of I have problems, I have so many reasons to live.